"We can't choose how we die but we can choose how we live." I heard that this weekend and it really got me thinking a lot about life and death. We seldom ever speak of death and seem to be frightened by it but the truth is it is inevitable. From the moment of conception we are destined for death. I don't think I'm afraid of dying. I'm more afraid my life will get cut off abruptly without me doing all the things that I want to do in this lifetime. I remember I had a dream about death. Here is how my dream went:
Passing through a running river and opening up to a vast field of tall green grass with the sun shining so brightly. I can recall how wonderful it feels on my skin... so free, painless, and no suffering. I finally reach a place on a mountain or hill and as I looked below I see a narrow road of people and see family, friends, and wondering strangers that I've had short conversations with but had an impact on me somehow but they don't see me. It felt as if I was watching a movie of my life. I guess a final trip down memory lane. Description of this road I can't describe in words and the feeling that I had. The road was paved with stacked photographs with countless candles illuminating the road leading to I'm not sure where. I see a glimpse of some photographs with me on my graduation, being at funerals-every single second of my life captured by a flash... I thought to myself so this is death. Death is surely a place where I want to go and understand why known travelers rather not return but unfortunately it doesn't want me now but I know I'm destined for it.
I guess what I'm trying to say is don't be afraid of death and that you really need to make the most of your time here on earth, love those people that are present, and don't hesitate on decisions that you want to do with your life. Remember we can't choose our death but it is up to you how you want to live your life.
Just a recap of my life thus far,
A view from the hotel
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